Depression is an insidious beast

I woke up this morning in a pit. Everything was awful, it was all too much work to exist and my only use to my family was to be their slave. NOT GOOD! Those are the days when I have deadened the pain with anything close to hand... As long as it was calorie-filled & a suitable means of taking out my utter worthlessness on myself. Today, I went for a swim in the surf - focussing on not being overwhelmed by the rip made it easier not to be overwhelmed by my feelings. After a healthy lunch (which nevertheless failed to satisfy) I had a nap & then got up, determined not to do any exercise today... 2:20 later, I had walked 9.2km. Kudos for robot-mode!!! Mood much better, although I didn't really enjoy the walk, as such. Had THE MOST DELICIOUS PIZZA for dinner, with bubbly & lemon russki! Lx